The perfection of suffering from Steven Kaufman's blog

What we experience as reality

is a perfect expression

of the relation of Beingness to Itself

that creates

what we experience as reality.

 

To be in conflict

with that expression

places what you actually are,

which is Beingness.

in conflict with Beingness,

in conflict with your Self.

 

To be in acceptance

of that expression

places what you actually are,

which is Beingness.

in alignment with Beingness,

in alignment with your Self.

 

The perfect expression

of the relation of Beingness to Itself

can appear as that which is wanted

or as that which is unwanted.

 

The perfection of the expression

does not lie

in the appearance of the expression

as wanted or unwanted.

 

The perfection of the expression

lies instead

in the way in which the expression,

appearing as wanted or unwanted,

perfectly reflects

and so perfectly expresses

the relation of Beingness to Itself

that creates the expression

Beingness is experiencing

as a reality.

 

And so the unwanted experience,

the unwanted reality,

is just as perfect

as the wanted experience,

just as perfect

as the wanted reality.

 

But we do not see it that way

when we do not see the Beingness

that is creating the expression,

that is creating the experience,

that is creating the reality.

 

Blind to Beingness

we see only the expression,

only the experience,

only the reality,

of wantedness or unwantedness.

 

Blind to Beingness

the wanted appears as perfect

and the unwanted appears as imperfect.

 

Blind to Beingness

and seeing the wanted as perfect

we cling to that perfect expression

hoping to make ourselves

more perfect.

 

Blind to Beingness

and seeing the unwanted as imperfect

we push away that perfect expression

hoping to rid ourselves

of the apparent imperfection

so that we can become

more perfect.

 

Blind to Beingness

we do not see the perfection

that we already and always Are.

 

Blind to Beingness

we see ourselves

as what is only an expression

an experience,

a reality,

a form,

that is actually being created  by

the formless Beingness,

and actually being apprehended by

the formless Beingness,

that we actually Are.

 

Clinging to the seemingly perfect

so that we can become more perfect

and pushing away the seemingly imperfect

so that we can become more perfect

are both actions that arise

from the same delusion,

which same delusion

is the identification of formless Beingness

with form.

 

And as both actions arise

from that same delusion

both actions must perpetuate

the singular delusion

from which they both arise.

 

For as long as Beingness

flows Itself into action

it knots into place

the underlying flow of Itself

that is the basis

of that action.

 

And so as long as Beingness

flows Itself into action

based on a delusion,

the flow of Itself

that is creating the delusion

must itself continue.

 

This is how Beingness,

once it identifies with form,

becomes bound by that delusion,

bound by the actions that seem so necessary,

bound by the actions it feels obliged to take,

once it knows itself as form

and so knows itself as that

which can be made more or less,

and so knows itself as that

which can be enhanced or diminished.

 

Seeming to be enhanced

by the apparent perfection

of that which is wanted,

and seeming to be diminished

by the apparent imperfection

of that which is unwanted,

form-identified Beingness

moves in attachment 

toward the wanted

and moves in aversion

toward the unwanted.

 

And in both of these Movements,

attachment and aversion,

form-identified Beingness

unknowingly and unconsciously

flows Itself

into a relation of conflict

with Itself. 

 

This is why

form-identified Beingness

creates suffering for Itself

when it tries to create

or modify reality,

when it tries to express Itself

while blind to Itself,

through the reactive and unconscious Movements

of attachment and aversion.

 

Because what we experience as reality

is a perfect expression

of the relation of Beingness to Itself

that creates

what we experience as reality.

 

And suffering

is the perfect expression of Beingness

that is in a relation of conflict

with Itself.

 

Suffering is the Beingness

that you actually Are

perfectly expressing Itself

as it flows Itself

into a relation of conflict

with Itself.

 

To change the expression

one must change the relation,

and to change the relation

one need only cease to react

with attachment and aversion

to whatever expressions

of wantedness and unwantedness

happen to be arising Now,

in this moment,

which is the only moment

there ever is.

 

For ceasing to react

with attachment and aversion

to the expressions that arise,

to the forms that arise,

within one's Beingness

within one's Awareness,

within one's Consciousness,

is not no action

is not no Movement,

but is actually the opposite Movement

of the Self-oppositional Movement

that simultaneously

blinds Beingness to Itself

while binding Beingness

to the delusion

that what it is

is what is actually

only an expression

that is being expressed and known

by Beingness Itself.

 

That is how Beingness unties Itself

from the knot of form-identification

by which it has bound Itself.

Not by tying more knots,

not through further reactive Movements,

but through the opposite Movement

which has already arisen

and in which Beingness is already engaged

the moment Beingness ceases to react

to the expressions of this moment,

to the experiences of this moment,

to the reality of this moment,

by instead accepting whatever forms

that are arising within Itself

in this moment

as the perfect expression

of Itself,

as the perfect expression

of what Is,

regardless of their appearance

as wanted or unwanted.

 

That is the Unconditioned

being unconditional.

That is the Unconditioned

being Itself.

That is the Unconditioned

moving out of ignorance

and into awareness

of Itself.